Pursue Growth

About this time last year, I decided to name my counseling practice "Pursue Growth Counseling." Although I wish I could tell you that the name was divinely inspired, in all reality the process looked more like me sitting on my couch for a couple of hours typing in name after name into the domain search engine trying to find something that hadn't already been taken. It was much more difficult than I thought it would be, this naming of my business that I have never really wanted to think about as a business, per se.

Yes, I'm a counselor who has my own private practice (which sounds much more glamorous than it really is, by the way), but the reason I'm a counselor is not to be a business person. Ever since adolescence, I have viewed the profession of counseling as a calling, a vocation, a ministry. "Business" was never a part of the vocabulary. I did not go through 4 years of undergraduate education and 3 years of graduate school, earning a Bachelor of Arts in Psychology (plus a minor in Sociology) and a Master of Science in Marriage and Family Therapy, with an emphasis in Community Counseling to be a business owner, but to be a counselor.

However, the last 29 months of establishing a private practice have made it abundantly clear that, like it or not, I need to be willing to examine who I am and what I hope to accomplish as a counselor through the lens of business if I want to grow. In a recent webinar I purchased and watched through Psychotherapy Networker entitled "The Future of Private Practice," I finally found the verbiage to express what it is I have become, aside from a licensed associate counselor. Lynn Grodzki, LCSW, explained that counselors who are in private practice often find that they become "reluctant entrepreneurs." I felt so validated knowing that, firstly, there is language to describe how I feel about this and secondly, that I am not alone in this awkward space of figuring out how to operate as both a counselor and a business owner.

The work of counseling can be challenging, of course, but I have extensive training, a natural gifting and a deep passion for doing the work and because of that it often doesn't feel like "work." It feels like a privilege and a gift and it's what I wake up excited to do in the morning. The business side of things (networking, marketing, web design and maintenance, setting and collecting fees, finding referral sources, being vulnerable online by writing posts like this) are far beyond my knowledge level, skill set and comfort zone. That's the part that feels like work.

I am realizing, more now than ever before, that the name I arrived at for my counseling practice is just as much for me as it is for my clients. Pursue Growth. It's what I'm here to help my clients do, and it's also what I am called to do on a daily basis. It also looks differently for each one of us. I am being called to Pursue Growth in learning how to better put myself out there as a counselor in private practice, not to make my name great (as an introverted and private individual, that is the absolute last thing that I want!), but in order to be accessible and to be found by the people that I have been equipped and called to serve through counseling.

So whether you are a fellow counselor trying to figure out private practice or an individual who is considering seeking counseling, I hope you will know that you are not alone in this uncomfortable, but so richly rewarding, process of pursuing growth. I'm right there with you. I wouldn't ask you to do the work, whatever that may look like for you, if I wasn't willing to do the same. We're in this together. We both have work to do. We both have so much to learn. We will both be better because of it.

The Pattern is the Problem

Recently, I have been studying up on the work of clinical psychologist and developer of Emotionally Focused Couple's Therapy, Dr. Sue Johnson. In her book, "Hold Me Tight: Seven Conversations for a Lifetime of Love," Dr. Johnson explains that the basis of Emotionally Focused Couple's Therapy is encouraging couples to be emotionally responsive to each other through seven key conversations aimed to help create safe connections. Dr. Johnson identifies three components of emotional responsiveness through the acronym A.R.E.:

Accessibility: Can I reach you? 
Responsiveness: Can I rely on you to respond to me emotionally?
Engagement: Do I know you will value me and stay close?

These are the questions that we are all silently asking the ones we love most, desperately hoping the answer to be a resounding "yes" to all three. Dr. Johnson explains that what most often stands in the way of being able to remain accessible, responsive and engaged with our loved ones are the patterns of interaction we tend to operate within. 

In the first conversation of Emotionally Focused Couple's Therapy, "Recognizing the Demon Dialogues," Dr. Johnson identifies three primary patterns of interaction that prevent us from safely connecting with our loved ones. Take a look and see if you can put your finger on the one that most often occurs in your relationship:

1. Find the Bad Guy: This pattern is defined by mutual attack, accusation or blame. Partners see each other in a negative light and begin  reacting to each other in anger and anticipating each other's put-downs, often competing to take the first verbal strike. 

2. The Protest Polka: One partner reaches out in an attempt to connect, and the other steps back to create distance. Each step of this dance reinforces the other. The pursuit of one partner leads to the withdrawal of the other...which leads to more persistent attempts to connect from the first and subsequently an even greater effort to withdraw from the second.

3.Freeze and Flee: This pattern tends to evolve from The Protest Polka as both partners shut down as a response to their loss of connection and the helplessness they feel concerning how to restore it. There may even be a spirit of politeness and an end to the fighting. This is not a sign of health, however, as both partners have emotionally disengaged at this point.

As disheartening as it may be to read about the above patterns and see them played out within your relationship, here is the good news...You are not the problem! Your loved one is not the problem! The pattern is the problem! Once you identify the pattern that most threatens the health of your relationship, you can begin learning how to interact with each other in a manner that promotes emotional safety and connection in your relationship as you strive to remain accessible, responsive and engaged. For more information about how to do this, I encourage you to pick up a copy of Dr. Johnson's book "Hold Me Tight: Seven Conversations for a Lifetime of Love." 


 

Ready...Set...Goal!

As a counselor, I certainly value the practice of setting goals that will lead to greater health on all levels: psychological, emotional, mental, physical, spiritual and relational. Goals are helpful when they place us on a path of focused direction so that we do not continue wandering aimlessly through our days. They hold us accountable to ourselves, and to the safe-others with whom we choose to share them.  Please keep in mind, however, that goals are most helpful when they are:

  1. Small
  2. Achieveable
  3. Measureable

I understand the temptation to bolt full-speed ahead in pursuit of growth. When we finally get motivated to do something differently, it is easy to want to take on the world. But please, please, please remember that small changes often lead the way to bigger changes.

When you set a goal for yourself, start out small. It is also important to make sure that your goal is achievable. Try not to compare yourself to those around you. Everyone is unique in their capacity for what they can take on at any given time. So set yourself up for success and create a goal that is reasonable for who you are and where you are at this season of your life. It also helps to define for yourself how you will know you are on your way to accomplishing your goal, and ultimately, how you will know you have succeeded.

When you attain your goal, give yourself some time to adjust to maintaining whatever changes you have implemented. Reward yourself for your hard work and allow yourself the opportunity to rest before you set and start working towards your next goal.